When Life Feels Heavy

Today felt heavy. It wasn't any one thing, but rather an accumulation of things. I couldn't hold it together. It was the first time I had a gut-wrenchingly honest cry out to God in a while. Things that have been weighing on my heart for some time that have been buried deep inside or shrugged off because I needed to be present to other circumstances- He heard all of it. As I did, I had this deep impression that He wants me to expect Him to come through as a part of a verse that says "my expectation comes from Him" kept coming to mind. Later, I found myself opening up an email only to read a testimony that shared how God used a tragedy to bring Him glory and a verse that I felt God impressed upon my heart as we moved into our home that was exactly what I needed. It had me tearing up all over again. God always seems to do that. While situations seem bleak and depressing, He's always there to meet us where we're at, see our needs and fill them. I don't know where people are at, but I know I'm not alone in feeling like things are heavy right now. The atmosphere has been weighed down upon for some time. Things aren't going as we hoped, nothing is as it seems, and it's hard. Instead of collapsing under such hefty burdens that are too big for us to carry, I want to encourage you to cast your cares upon the One who cares so much for you. He sees your need, He knows where you're at, He wants to lighten your load, and He wants to shine through these dark and dreary times for you. Be real. Be honest. He can handle it, and He wants to more than anything. SON-SHINE THROUGH

I saw the sky today All colored dark and gray Hung over me, a could of gloom Is my day doomed? Or should I anticipate a brighter day? I cried out to You today But I didn't hear Your reply I invited You with me today But You didn't show Why do You wish to remain silent now When I need You so? Am I deaf and blind? Where did You go? Didn't You know I needed You today? Will it always remain this way? Am I holding out for a brighter day With false hope? And if that were true That I'll go my days without You Please don't take me through 'Cause I need You And I miss You And I can't make it without You... Please come back soon 'Cause I'm waiting for You, Sonray To shine through these clouds of gray And I need You to shine through But, no matter what, I'm not giving up on You So please come back soon I'm in need of Your brighter view And how can You decline A request for a little Sonshine, When You wish to shine through?