Value

I remember the beginning of my journey this time around. I beat myself up mentally for allowing myself to get higher than ever after getting lower than I had ever gotten since kids even if my health, stress, & insomnia issues during pregnancy perpetuated it. I was incredibly hard on myself. I expected more.

I’ve lost hundreds of pounds between 6 pregnancies through the years, but so often the work put forth was out of an insecurity that I was unloved, rather than through the security of being loved no

matter my current state or size. While I had been taught immense discipline & self-control from an early age that produced results, I learned the hard way that anything done out of insecurity or fear will not produce lasting results or any fruit I want grown out of my life. The soil in my heart became hard. I was never satisfied with my results even if society said I should be. I knew all too well that I was loved by others & myself only conditionally & it cut to my core.

This time around, I asked God to show me my potential. I started reading what God thought about me & speaking it over my life. I built my foundation on His word rather than the instability of my insecurities or others’ opinions. I allowed His voice to become louder than the record on repeat in my head.

Society would tell me I’m still obese now, but I’m happier now than I was at a much smaller weight. My outsides are starting to reflect how I feel inside. I’ve always been the same person underneath, but I’m starting to see the value God saw in me when He sent His only begotten Son to die in my place when nobody else thought I was worth it. His goodness, His thoughts over me, His love when I felt unlovable, is what’s spurring me on. It’s softening the soil of my heart & producing fruit that no amount of self-control, self-discipline, self-hatred, self-effort, self-anything can produce. All I have to do is align my life with His & I want to take care of myself because He values me & lives inside me. #fitspiration #unconditionallove #ohhowhelovesus #value #valueyourself #godvaluesyou #renewyourmind #jesusbloodneverfailsme #loveneverfails